Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Another tap - when they give her the IV drugs, it scares me. She gets spacy and kind of far away, she has dark circles under her eyes. She looks really sick and it scares me.

But both the LP and drugs were good this time. We needed to know her pressure, and she needed a little more relief from pain than pills are giving her. She didn't sleep last night, but the meds have her resting now.

She's so funny - she always asks the nurse's names and why they wanted to be nurses. She likes talking to them; I think it's because they make her feel better. She feels safe with them, she knows if she hurts, they make it better. She's very attached to a couple of them and they all, every one of them, adore her.

The meds, though. Nothing she can take at home gets rid of the headache completely. So far, the only thing that brings it to a tolerable level is a neurotic. It's so hard - how can you deny the only med which helps so far? Yet, the med is addictive. It's a bloody narcotic for heaven's sake. With all the nasty side effects they come with. One of them is that, if you use it long enough, you can get rebound headaches.

What are the answers then?

At least her opening pressure was good.

In twenty minutes, I have to go get her brother and then come back here. Her sister has been battling her own headache for days and will probably need an LP of her own, soon.

I'm fucking tired and using this stylus and my PDA to write is time consuming and killing my hand.

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