Currently This

I can barely breathe. I'm in the middle of one of those "oh god, what did I just DO??" moments and I am unsure if I am handling it very well.

See, my oldest girl wants to see "Wicked" really bad when it comes to Los Angeles. And I wanted very much to give that to her. So - well, after spending an hour online going over seats and etc., I just spent TWO HUNDRED dollars to make sure she got two good tickets. I could have gotten her better ones for a sooner show, but she would have had to go alone, and no one should have to see their first major stage play alone, right? So we'll have to see who goes with her. Believe it or not, I am almost loathe to see the show. On the other hand, what a moment for her to remember, right?

Two hundred dollars - god, what am I thinking? Right now, that is such an incredibly big fucking deal.

I'm a lunatic.

Someone should stop me, lock me up for my own good.