My christmas cacti are blooming. Anyone know where I can find a yellow one? I have these gorgeous, vivid pink and red ones, but not yellow. You know what else is blooming? My honeysuckle, of all improbable things. Smells heavenly, too.
Here are the xmas themes- a little country for me, but there you go. Happy December. The set has three desktop wallpapers and two standard PPC themes:
Not my drawings, I just put the pieces together. Maybe I should try something a little three d.
Or not.
I think I may be in trouble. I feel so out of control. Not homi- or suicidal, but out of control as if the pieces of me that have been a whole suddenly aren't and are off on their own, doing their own things, popping in and out like a radio station almost too far away to pick up clearly and reliably.
I'm scared of that feeling, of not being entirely in control of my reactions to things. I could go back to a psychiatrist, but how many can a person see, how many meds can a person try and still be in trouble? if insanity is defined as doing the same thing over and over, but each time expecting different results, then isn't it insane to go to another doctor? Is it irresponsible not to go if it never works? And if it never works, is this what I have to look forward to, this increasingly fragmented blob of reactions I can't predict or control?
